Earlier this week, I got a mantra from my guru, and I've been meditating with it since. It's working for me. I'm not sure if it's my commitment to meditating twice a day and my persistence in sticking with it, or if it's the mantra itself, but I feel like I'm finding authentic peace.
This morning, I was walking between jobs, and the air was so, so cold, and the sun felt warm on my face, and the sky was beautiful and blue. I felt overcome with gratitude. I'm finding a better way to live, and it's working.
When I finished sitting in meditation last night, I couldn't get up. It felt too good to sit so surely in myself. I bowed my head in prayer, and sat for a long time repeating, "Thank you. Thank you. Thank you."