Oh I say, and I say it again! You been took! You been hoodwinked! Bamboozled! Led astray! Run amok! This is what he does!
-Malcolm X
I've been bamboozled. I woke up, and realized it, and now I'm pissed and can't get unbamboozled.
Damn my man. Damn The Man.
He went to bed last night at 9, saying he has to start going to bed earlier because his new job requires him to be up at 6. I stayed up until 1 and then went to sleep. He woke me up from my dead sleep, and he asked if I had any sleeping pills left. I told him I only had a few, and he said he couldn't sleep. I got up and gave him one.
When I first wake up, I have absolutely no defenses. If he asked, I'd probably just hand over my check card like I used to when I was still stupid. I felt bad for him. I've struggled with insomnia for many years (which explains my prescription)...so I have shared my pills with him before. However, in my current health-insuranceless, broke-ass state, each pill is precious, so I was reluctant, but I did it anyway.
When I went to lie back down, I looked at the clock and noticed that it's nearly 7 a.m. I got so mad, I kind of wanted to put the pillow over his head and hold him until he was still. Why the fuck is he taking one of my precious sleeping pills after sleeping 10 hours? Why am I so stupid as to give him one? Why am I sitting upstairs hating him while he's downstairs sleeping soundly?
See, not only are my defenses down when I first wake up regarding giving him the dumb shit he asks of me, but I also react really badly. When I realized what he'd just done, I got pissed and said things I shouldn't have. "Why can't you ever just take 'no' for an answer? Why are you such a world-class fuck up? What the fuck are you taking my pills for? Why are you asking me for shit I don't want to give you?" and etc.
