One of the speakers at yesterday's meeting, while talking about that particular habit of addicts of doing the same damn dumbass thing again and again and again, a habit my husband can demonstrate for anyone who has never seen an addict in action, as he does it on a dailyfuckingbasis, said:
Make New Mistakes.
He said when he first started coming to meetings, someone told him to make new mistakes, talk to people who seem strange and different, and explore everything that you don't know. If you're used to slick-talking, greasy motherfuckers, go sit next to the people who seem different, square, boring. Find everything new and different...because even if they fuck you up or fuck you over, at least it will be new. You'll be breaking that maddening cycle.
I thought it was very wise. I'm putting it in my list of wonderful things I've learned. I can't expect perfection, and I am going to make bad choices and fuck up, probably a lot. But at least I can have a new adventure with every fuckup!