I have been pondering whether or not to actually admit that I was the one who
was searching "effects of heroin addict father preconception". Well, it was me.
It is quite embarrassing after reading it but I bet you can understand after I
explain myself. I have been with my husband 9 yrs and have no children. He got
out of rehab in January but is still not living back at home with me. Mostly,
because I would swear on my life that he still using even though he denies it.
We both talk about wanting to have a family. I really do want to have a baby but
a million questions come rushing thru my head. For example, yes I do want a baby
but, should he be fathering it? If he is still using, would the baby be okay? If
I did get pregnant would it be the one thing that would make him want to quit?
Those are just a few. So, please think of me as just a girl wanting to have a
normal life again with her so-called recovering drug addict husband.
So, dear Google searcher:
Please write to me if you ever want to. I'd love to make friends. I'm betting that we have a lot in common. I want a baby, too, and I have a crazy-ass husband, and I'm scared. So I understand if you want to be anonymous, but if you ever feel like emailing, you always can at firstname.lastname@example.org.
I'm a crazy codependent who thinks she can save the world from the evils of heroin, so if you ever need anyone to cry or complain to, I'm (electronically) here for you.