I think I'm retiring this identity now. It has served me well, but I want to tell other stories.
If you have found this site and it has been helpful to you, I am happy. I am happy that my experiences with my husband's addiction have been useful.
And to anyone who might find it for the first time, please know that God is with you. In the most difficult times, I've been able to feel God's hand holding me, carrying me through.
I can offer no better advice than this from pg. 164 of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous:
Abandon yourself to God as you understand God. Admit your faults to Him and to your fellows. Clear away the wreckage of your past. Give freely of what you find and join us. We shall be with you in the Fellowship of the Spirit, and you will surely meet some of us as you trudge the Road of Happy Destiny.
May God bless you and keep you -- until then.
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