Thursday, December 20, 2007

Powerlessness Is Scary.

It's a dream:

We're in the car together, and he's driving. We're heading to one of the studios where he used to work, the first one. We've not been there in a long time, and we're both excited. He's going to finish a piece he started, and it's going to be really beautiful.

He's driving. I don't like it, but I'm trying to ignore that I don't like it because things are so pleasant. I think that I should just let him drive. The sun is setting. I look out the window and try to enjoy it.

The studio is over a hill. I notice some traffic cones and flashing lights. " I think we're not supposed to go this way," I tell him. I'm trying to relax. He keeps going. There are workers waving their flags at us. People are shouting, "Don't go that way!" I am getting more and more upset, but I'm also trying to watch the sunset and trying to relax. I'm trying to let him drive. I'm trying not to take the wheel.

Suddenly, we're falling. He's driven into a huge pit. We're falling, and it's taking a long time. I'm hoping that we won't die. I don't know how anyone will ever rescue us. I look over at him, and I want to touch him. I notice that he's nodding.

7 comments:

Mantramine said...

Oh dear, I bet you squirted. Nasty dream. Nodding is so last week.

(happy I get to say something and get all up in your bidness)

Mary P Jones (MPJ) said...

Wow, lovely metaphor -- look at your mind working hard in your sleep.

CindyB1 said...

Anxiety over trying to let him go his own way, and fear that it will end badly and take you with it. Funny how dreams sometimes mirror our internal angst.

abbiegrrl said...

Wow. I love deciphering dreams. After a while they seem so easy to read...
I admire your stamina and resolve. :o)

bottlecappie said...

Do you believe in premonitions?

You wrote that so well, I felt like I was going off the cliff with you. I hope that the tension (from the dream) resolves in a way less spectacular way.

vicariousrising said...

I know you have comments off for your "cold" post, and I don't know if it makes any difference coming from an alcoholic female rather than an addict male. But I just wanted to tell you: it's not your fault.

suchsimplepleasures said...

i just want to thank you for stopping by my blog. you noticed that my mom reads it...that's why i also have another "secret"blog...none of my family is allowed...nor, do they know about it!!!
have a happy and healthy holiday season!