We spent a luxurious day lying around on the couch at his mother's house. There was no internet out there, or at least not the free-floating piratable wireless kind that I love so much, so I was out of touch.
I can't decide if it was good lazy or not. It wasn't the way I would have chosen to spend the day, and I'm harboring a bit of resentment about his getting to decide what we do with our day on the weekends. I understand he's bored and etc. because he sits at home all week, but I'm eager to do things at home, clean the house, stick the pictures on the wall I've been thinking about in the Art Room, and generally enjoy myself here. We did some compromising, though. He wanted to go last night and spend the night, and instead, we went out there today and spent the evening.
It was ok, and I like his mother. We griped about our men. His father's brother has come to live with the family, and his mother griped about that, too. She's feeling a little run down from trying to take care of herself, the house, the yard, and her husband. I like talking to her in general, but especially now that she's in AA and kind of steeped in recovery rhetoric. It helps me to talk to anyone who can relate to this crap, and even though she's coming from the other rooms, it's still helpful.
Once again, I'm astonished by my ability to be sympathetic towards her and all other addicts in the world that aren't my husband.
I want to feel myself making some bigger and better improvements. I'm getting fat, slowly and steadily, and I don't like this weird, sedentary life. I'm always happier when I'm doing something physical. I think I might go become a Roller Derby Girl. It seems like it could be fun and exciting and aggressive as hell, and they're just starting up a league, which means that there's no try outs...it's open to those of us who can't even skate. I bet I'll learn quick if it seems fun, like I did with martial arts...or not that I learned quick, but I threw myself into it and learned to do things I never thought I'd be able to do.
I wish I could find a good martial arts school here.
But I need to move my ass around. I like to move my ass around. I need something fun, a way to meet some fun women to hang out with, and something to distract me from my man. Roller Derby Girl! It'll be kickass.